Fear

Fear keeps all of us trapped at some point in our lives. It prevents us from speaking out, holding on and letting go. Don't claim to 'not understand' what I'm talking about. We've all felt it. That gripping feeling you get when you know the right things is probably the hardest thing you've ever done and probably, will ever do, in your lifetime. Well, I've got one of those heart-wrenching, stone-cold fears right now, have had for a long time now. I guess I would class it as the one that prevents me from 'speaking out'; from telling that one person how I feel, how I think I've felt longer than I've been aware of the extent myself. But also a bit of the last one too - letting go. I cant let go of this feeling no matter how hard I try. I gave up fighting the fear that stopped me from speaking out, I wont do that but I realise now that if I dont face my fears and speak I'll never be able to let go.

So I admitted it: I am no where near as strong as everyone seems to think I am. I have fears, some stupider than others, but that just makes me human. And my biggest fear of all? It's losing these people(random order, no order of preference intended):

Megan

Scott

Bjork

Wanda (my cat lolzz)

Tim

Rob

Khaira

Ahmoy

Joe

I think I'd be able to live my life with just these people by my side :) so the rest of the world can fall into any manner of human error they wish, I don't want any part in it :P

On another, slightly lighter note.... I've been having random bits of script, song lyrics and poetry bouncing round in my head the past couple of days. Each brilliant thought followed by one even better and then forgotten just as quickly as it sprung up but none can reach paper because unless it's my beloved 'MaddHatts' notebook nothing will flow when I get a pen to paper =.= NEED to find ITTTT O.o

Apart from this, I know that now this is all off my chest, I will definitely not forget to smile :D 

Sooooo......

DF2S ♥